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Meaone

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Hello everyone. I am new to the website. My name is Brandi. I have had anxiety/ panics since 2007-2008. I deal with the best I can. I can't take the meds my doctor has tried. Xanax is as needed. I only take them if my deep breathing doesn't work.
I will give a little background on what sure is the reason I have these "LITTLE" things.
My dad passed of cancer in 99. I held his hand and was the only one in the room with him when he took his last breath. My mom was tring to get the nurses. He was buried 9 days before my wedding.
I took care of my mom until she suddenly passed of a heart attack in 2007. A day or two before Christmas Eve. They both were in their mid 60's. my dad only delt with cancer for 2 to 3 months before passing.

Since the death of my mom. I worry and I mean worry about my heart. Any little pain chest, arm ,ear, throat, ect sends me over the deep end and in a bad way. I don't know why this is. I have seen doctors and mental health persons. No one can pin point it. I am just at a lose.

I have come to grips with these things. And can deep breath through some of them. Others I can't. What makes it bad for me is the systems they have. Just like a heart attack which causes even more panic.

However my question is ( and this one has bugged me for awhile) after a very bad panic attack. I can never remember it at all. All I remember is fear that is it. My husband will try to fill in the blank spaces. However he doesn't like doing that cause he thinks it will cause another one. Has anyone else have this happen to them? If so does anyone know why? Thanks
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Hello everyone. I am new to the website. My name is Brandi. I have had anxiety/ panics since 2007-2008. I deal with the best I can. I can't take the meds my doctor has tried. Xanax is as needed. I only take them if my deep breathing doesn't work. I will give a little background on what sure is the reason I have these "LITTLE" things. My dad passed of cancer in 99. I held his hand and was the only one in the room with him when he took his last breath. My mom was tring to get the nurses. He was buried 9 days before my wedding. I took care of my mom until she suddenly passed of a heart attack in 2007. A day or two before Christmas Eve. They both were in their mid 60's. my dad only delt with cancer for 2 to 3 months before passing. Since the death of my mom. I worry and I mean worry about my heart. Any little pain chest, arm ,ear, throat, ect sends me over the deep end and in a bad way. I don't know why this is. I have seen doctors and mental health persons. No one can pin point it. I am just at a lose. I have come to grips with these things. And can deep breath through some of them. Others I can't. What makes it bad for me is the systems they have. Just like a heart attack which causes even more panic. However my question is ( and this one has bugged me for awhile) after a very bad panic attack. I can never remember it at all. All I remember is fear that is it. My husband will try to fill in the blank spaces. However he doesn't like doing that cause he thinks it will cause another one. Has anyone else have this happen to them? If so does anyone know why? Thanks



What is it about the panic attack that you don't remember? You are saying you remember the fear. For the most part that is what a panic attack is. It is an intense and exaggerated fear. Is it other sensations that you don't remember? Do you remember where you were when you remember the "fear"?. If that is the case than that is very normal. If you totally don't remember where you were than that is a different story and might not even be anxiety-related. From what we know and I what I have read panic and anxiety alone can't cause blackouts,but the side effects of high doses of xanax can. What dosage of xanax are you on? I would check with your Dr. about that,but it seems like you do remember your attack otherwise how would you remember the fear?
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Hello everyone. I am new to the website. My name is Brandi. I have had anxiety/ panics since 2007-2008. I deal with the best I can. I can't take the meds my doctor has tried. Xanax is as needed. I only take them if my deep breathing doesn't work. I will give a little background on what sure is the reason I have these "LITTLE" things. My dad passed of cancer in 99. I held his hand and was the only one in the room with him when he took his last breath. My mom was tring to get the nurses. He was buried 9 days before my wedding. I took care of my mom until she suddenly passed of a heart attack in 2007. A day or two before Christmas Eve. They both were in their mid 60's. my dad only delt with cancer for 2 to 3 months before passing. Since the death of my mom. I worry and I mean worry about my heart. Any little pain chest, arm ,ear, throat, ect sends me over the deep end and in a bad way. I don't know why this is. I have seen doctors and mental health persons. No one can pin point it. I am just at a lose. I have come to grips with these things. And can deep breath through some of them. Others I can't. What makes it bad for me is the systems they have. Just like a heart attack which causes even more panic. However my question is ( and this one has bugged me for awhile) after a very bad panic attack. I can never remember it at all. All I remember is fear that is it. My husband will try to fill in the blank spaces. However he doesn't like doing that cause he thinks it will cause another one. Has anyone else have this happen to them? If so does anyone know why? Thanks



What is it about the panic attack that you don't remember? You are saying you remember the fear. For the most part that is what a panic attack is. It is an intense and exaggerated fear. Is it other sensations that you don't remember? Do you remember where you were when you remember the "fear"?. If that is the case than that is very normal. If you totally don't remember where you were than that is a different story and might not even be anxiety-related. From what we know and I what I have read panic and anxiety alone can't cause blackouts,but the side effects of high doses of xanax can. What dosage of xanax are you on? I would check with your Dr. about that,but it seems like you do remember your attack otherwise how would you remember the fear?
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I guess I don't know what I am asking. I know it is not a blackout. I know where I am at the time. I just know they scare me bad. I have had these so long that it has been the norm for me. I only take half of a .25 Xanax. Whole one if needed. I am on them as needed only so I don't take them all the time. I do deep breathing and bio feed back relaxation. It helps but there are times where it doesn't. That is the time I take my meds. I just hate the feeling. Thanks
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It might help you to read everything written on the website. It addresses the constant self-focusing and irrational beliefs, because right now you believe very strongly that you have something majorly (but unknown) wrong with you. And you are probably trying to control your nervous sensitization rather than accepting it as a temporary reaction to your worrying. Please read it

and perhaps you should be posting under the other forum where most of the members hang out.
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It sounds like you're experiencing brain fog/unreality after your panic attacks, which is completely normal. It's your system's way of protecting you by slowing things down and allowing you time to recover. You need to realize that when you're in a panic state, your brain is filtering out the unessential sensory information -- and leaving the essential remaining. Think of it this way, if you were being chased by a tiger the last thing on your mind would be the smell of the flowers you're running by. Again, I believe what you're experiencing is normal, and your focus should be on accepting the panic/anxiety sensations -- including the bodily sensations that make you think "heart attack," which sets your second fear and negative self talk in motion.
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Thanks for the help. I will keep trying. Thanks again.
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Hello I am new to this website and not sure how to post my own separate post but long story short, I had a terrifying experience while high a couple years ago when I was 19 and I went to the ER. I still have a little bit of DP and I always get anxiety but no attacks. I want an attack to come so I can try the method but there is one issue I have. I cannot stop focusing on my breath! It always comes out at night before bed and it feels like I am consciously controlling my breath which is super Annoying. OCD? I don't know but I use to love smoking weed anyway and every time I smoked after my attack I always fought my anxiety but now I've been quit for months and I'm wondering if the only way to face my fears are to smoke and just let the panic happen? I feel like the only way to overcome this is to try it high because that is the only time I truly get heavy panic. No attacks really since the one while high though. I'm wondering though, will this stupid breathing obsession end once I get to the other side of the fear? Thanks so much again for the site and book. Hope to hear from you soon.
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Many times a breathing focus/obsession is based on a belief that "something might be wrong with my breathing so I had better keep monitoring it!"
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Yeah makes sense but its been consistent for two years and I'm not sure what to do to stop the monitoring of my breathing. I guess I should just accept the fact that I'm focusing on it let myself?
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