Those who read my despair post a few days/week back will know that after feeling really good for some time I had a little set back this week.
I have only had a handful of these really dark days over my decade long time with anxiety.
my question today is this:
Are there two sides to anxiety or have I been experiencing depression? I’m confused because when I’ve had physical anxiety symptoms eg heart pounding, rapid breathing, feeling of dread and fear- I’ve mostly been able to cope and accept them and they sure enough relax and die down... however when things get really tough I feel:
hot and cold? Tingly
like a dark cloud has descended
emotional and on edge of crying
start thinking I’d rather die than live like this
cant think of anything but how I’m feeling
everything that makes me happy in my life I no longer want to do because I am consumed
like I’ll never be well again
can’t function very well
worse in the morning
don’t want to get out of bed (more fearful that unmotivated)
even the smallest thoughts and jobs seem like climbing a mountain
is this sensitisation? Or anxiety? Or depression?
this feeling motivates me only to do nothing.
is this extreme anxiety?
looking back to last week before I became overwhelmed with this feeling, I noticed for brief moments that this feeling was present. I accepted it but of course, I was frightened because this feeling doesn’t feel like the day to day anxiety I deal with and cope with ok. This feels very emotional.
could anyone elaborate?