BodhiBro
As I look within at this illness that i now know isn't make believe, I see the shame and loneliness I've created in my life. My nervous system has been so triggered for so long I don't see anything in life that I am attracted to. I am 55 years old and the world seems so different these days. I wonder can I find joy in this new millenial world. I had to move home to my old neighborhood I grew up in and it's all different. I know my view may be tainted at this time, but i look at the world and i find it hard to find something to look forward to. I've been alone so long I wonder can I even maintain a friendship or even a relationship. I realize that although my life use to be full, there was always this nervousness and depression it just got worse the more tragic things happened in my life. Have anyone here 50+ felt this way? Have you found your way back to joy and happiness? 
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markr
Hello,

You're certainly not alone with how you feel. It can feel isolating as it is so personal. There is no shame in it though, millions of people are affected across the world.
Once you really see what this is, just a hyped up nervous system that produces many, many weird symptoms and feelings, you'll grow in confidence. There is no illness. You're actually mentally healthy, you just don't realise it.
Feeling better, or 'recovery' (not so keen on that word) opens up new doors to work, hobbies, love, travel etc. You're at the start of your journey now. Don't feel bad about the past, it's gone. Look forward with a new attitude once you've gained all the information you need. A good example to follow is GlennDenZenn (think that's how you spell it?!). He is doing well and even has is own YouTube channel.

Wish you the best!

Mark..
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BodhiBro
Thank you so much friend. Appreciated. I will remember what you shared and read more GlenZen. 
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Shen
While the experience of panic and anxiety are indeed very traumatizing and can influence in your mood just the experience alone.  you also need to know that

Anxiety and panic can cause a depletion of your neurotransmitters. This in essence can cause feelings of depression and loneliness, even if you don't have real reasons to be like that. We are chemical beings after all, anxiety and panic can cause havoc on our hormones. enough to deplete them, without them we feel like crap and that sucks

I recommend you on your journey to recovery, to also take care of yourself, Do things that improve your mood and refills the chemicals in your brain. like exercise, Diet, Supplements and of course... managing stress (this comes with the acceptance method). and soon, your body will fix itself and you will comeback to homeostasis (like you were before) 😉


You Can Do This~
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BodhiBro
This was a huge insight for me Shen...thank you! 
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